dr

The dr trip was a lot better than I expected (probably not so much that I didn't expect so much, as much as I was too busy to even have time to have expectations; wow that's a lot of much's).

No one cried. Or, no one cried enough for me to notice, haha. The trip was too fun to be sad?

I find it hard to miss people when 1) life is short compared to the eternity I will probably spend with them and 2) God willing, I will see them again (i.e. before I die). Although point 1 applies only to some people, so maybe this comes with a greater sense of urgency for others?

But maybe the real reason is entirely separate, and less palatable. And that is: If I lose touch with someone, it is because I choose to. Maybe we're just sad that our future selves will not mind losing touch, even though it(?) would be perfectly okay with it? But this might not be the entire reason, since it definitely is harder to keep in touch with someone you no longer have shared experiences with, even if you want to.

Anyway. In Boston now, work tomorrow, quick turnaround, huh? Life never stops moving. And the rooms here are big (compared with those at Princeton). As in, 3-4 times the size for the same number of people, no joke.

life stages

I read the following somewhere (or maybe I saw it in a movie), and I really can't confirm this. John the Classics major is skeptical.

But apparently (or not so apparently), in ancient Athens, a boy was considered old enough to go to school when, being offered a coin and an apple, he'd choose the coin over the apple. The idea was that at this point in his life, he finally understood that the coin could buy multiple apples in the future; he was therefore mature enough to forgo immediate pleasure for greater future benefit (i.e. delayed gratification).

Presumably, girls never went to school because they never would choose the coin over the apple. Or maybe it was for some other reason, I forget :P

If only maturity at other stages in life were so easy to test.

gross

I still remember when I was little, and I had diarrhea, I would reassure myself by thinking: "There are a finite number of times in my life that this will happen to me. One down, X to go."  More recently, I've recalled hearing people say "this is my 3rd to last finals week, ever", etc. Does it help at all to know that the amount of suffering we will face in our lifetime is finite, but that the happiness we experience now is only a shadow of what's to come?

Somewhat of a tangent, but I've always wondered whether it should be called number 1.5 (because it's a cross between number 1 and number 2), or number 3 (because it's the sum of number 1 and number 2).

happiness

You know, someone once told me that if there's one thing worth pursuing, it's your own happiness (in whatever form that may come). I thought that was incredibly profound. People who pursue money are often unhappy after becoming rich. The same could be said of people who pursue fame, education, etc. So shouldn't we pursuing that which makes us happiest?

Now, I find myself too easily caught up in the pursuit of my own happiness. I want to find a good fellowship next year, a good church, friends, etc. And when I think about it, I want these things to be happy? I need to remind myself that there is a reason that I am going to be where I am next year, and that my immediate happiness is secondary to that (even though I don't know what that is)?.

This is not to say that the pursuit of happiness is bad. But maybe some qualification is necessary?

On a side note, Obama's been trying to regulate executive pay at financial firms in order to reward long-term (rather than short-term) performance. People argue that executives deserve what they're paid based on their performance, but the incentives are currently such that short-term (and unsustainable) gains are preferred. I have this image in my mind (that could be totally off) of a cross between the St. Petersburg paradox and Russian Roulette. Anyway, whether Obama is going about this in the right way is debatable. But I feel that there's an analogy to be drawn to the pursuit of short-term (unsustainable) happiness vs. long-term happiness.

corny

Visit weekends are tiring. There is also a lot of pressure to go to the school... I mean, pressure may be the wrong word. It's just that when you start meeting people, and you get to know them, and they are set on going, it's sad to think that if you decide not to go there you might never see these people ever again :(

Something a professor said (paraphrased):
"After working together long hours for many months with the same grad students in your group, you feel like you should all be close. But the real close-ness comes when you go to conferences together. You're surrounded by people from other schools, and all of a sudden the similarities you have with the grad students in your group (i.e. the fact that you go to the same school) override the differences you have with them."

This weekend, I was with two other students from Princeton (one an undergrad that I had never really talked to before, and the other a grad student that I happened to have one class with). I barely knew them, but the other prospective grad students couldn't tell :)

Kings

Just saw the season premier of Kings. Overall pretty non-complex, maybe some oversimplification, but I kind of liked it. I'll be very interested to see how they take this from here.

edit: the day I posted this was my sister's birthday, yay (or as she would say, hooray!) :)

evangelism

Penn Jillette, a professed atheist:



"I don’t respect people who don’t proselytize. If you believe that there’s a heaven and hell, and people could be going to hell, and you think, 'Well, it’s not really worth telling them this because it would make it socially awkward' ... How much do you have to hate somebody not to proselytize?"